A bit down these days...

I don't know know if it is PMS, the fall, feeling old, or plain old not feeling well from the meads and diet changes--I is not a very happy camper right now. I am sick of wheat and feeling sick to my stomach or hanging out in the bathroom more than I care to be. I think I have been obsessed with this diet thing and need to back off a bit. I am driving myself crazy. I am feeling very old with my knees of late. I did goto the doctor and had x-rays, turns out it is not my ligament like I assumed but that my knee cap doesn't track right and is grinding and pulling the muscles in odd ways. Indeed that explains my pain under the cap and all the muscles around. It has gotten to the point where I can't cross my legs it hurts too much and I have pain throughout the night. I have to either sleep on my back or stomach to have my knees straight so they don't hurt as much to sleep. Well, that alone could explain my feeling cranky--continual pain will bring it out in anyone! Anyway, I goto physical therapy tomorrow night and I hope they teach me how to tape my knee to relieve pain and allow me to exercise it properly. And then Friday night I am on-call. Ugh. I already feel wiped out and am worried my knee pain will be worse after pt. to be on my feet extra the next day. I hope it is not a busy night and I can rest it. We do have fun plans this weekend with people from Diana's job, game night. But then I am helping with a memorial service at the hospital, which is not so fun. I will need to cook something up to have fun with after that service before the weekend is over. And the following weekend is my birthday. Which I have mixed feelings about. At least I didn't get a card from my father saying happy belated birthday, uh two weeks early. Maybe this year he will remember when I was born correctly. Or who knows, maybe he wouldn't remember it at all--hard to say. I need to call him and see if we can hook up when we are next in town. I keep putting it off as it can be painful for me to try to connect and not have it work out. I will work up the courage soon. Maybe even today.